A letter from Dec 27, 2024

Dear 25 y/o Liv, It's me, freshly 24 y/o Liv. I've just had a small Christmas with Mom, Nanny, Poppy, Emily, the kids, and our baby brother. I spent my whole birthday cleaning my room up, though there is still much to do before it could be considered livable again. As I write on past Christmas and to my birthday, a thought crosses my mind that I want, so desperately, to push down. "This could be her last Christmas" just like her birthday could be her last birthday. And the last kiss on the head I gave her, could be the last one. I hope by this time next year you have the same fear instead of an empty heart. Before my heart breaks, let me digress. Today is the 27th. I'm at Omega listening to Camille Saëns - Danse Macabre, avoiding working and drinking a can of coke. Tomorrow, I will have my party. Tonight, I may go out with Russ tonight. Here's a toast to hoping that this time next year, I'm not so horribly obsessed with him. Strangely enough, I think his brother is into me. He's nearly mom's age. I won't lie when I say I like the attention. Anyway, I've invited a bunch of people to my party. I hope someone gets in a fight or something. I've been so bored lately. Oh yeah! I've been driving a lot lately. My stubborn ego doesn't really help learning very much. I'll get the hang of it soon. I've gotta stop by Walmart and Sally's for some glue on nails, makeup wipes, Hairspray, and Red hair dye. I'm trying to look like an absolute **** tomorrow. You only turn 24 once, right? My 23rd birthday was a banger besides Julie's ********. I'm sure you remember us singing What's My Age Again. I just hope Bonnie and Josh don't get in an argument. I also hope these stupid men can stop acting like dogs and let me have a good night. I wish I could have a girls night + my main crew. No extra men. Ya girl has been so mad at men lately. Literally only been screwing Russ and he doesn't have the *** drive I do. Although, we ****** twice last weekend, which was unusual. Only stopped by his **** piercing :(( I wish he'd take that evil thing out. Don't get me wrong, it's hot, but owww... man.. I wish he would just love me back.. but nooooo.. goth guys never want the goth girl. They want big booty Latinas :// whatever. I don't need a boyfriend anyway. I'm way too mentally unstable. You remember how you treated Exie. But honestly **** Andrea. She's fake and toxic and Exie would do anything to defend her ********. Ooo and I've got that tattoo Planned for 1/16.. God I'm so excited and scared. You know better than me surely. You're probably reading this like "you really wanted to go ribs first, huh?" LOL sorry boo. I can't wait to be tatted all the way up. I'm already pierced as ****. After I get tatted up, lip filler here we come XDD. I'm done yappin now. I hope you have the BEST week. I'm sure your birthday party isn't for a few days or something like that. If you're even having one. Ngl planning a future alone is so scary. I've always had a bf :/ idk where we're gonna be next year, but I'm sure we'll be more successful but also lonely LOL tell me if I'm right. Anyhow. Tell the family I love them dearly. Oh yeah p.s. going to see dad next weekend. Pray for me!