A letter from Dec 26, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I just want to start off by saying 'Merry Christmas!!' This letter was written to you exactly a year ago and I am writing this in hopes that you are at a much better and happier place than your past self. Don't worry, I am not "going through it". 2024 was one of the best years I've had since so long. The last time I had that much fun was in 2018, but it was still not as eventful as 2024. From graduating high school (and college iykyk), getting your drivers license to entering your first semester of university, there were so many highlights and important checkpoints in your life that you can't forget. As the year 2025 is about to come to an end, I have a couple of questions for you. These questions are some of the main things that are worrying your past self in the moment that I am writing this letter. First, how is your family? Is papa, mummy, and chechi doing okay? Did chechi get a nursing job? Did she get married!?!? Is papa working at a better workplace that he was before? (I feel like i already know the answer to this one). Did we finally buy a house?! (just kidding hahaha). I'm currently also worried about getting my sister her green card, so if you were able to finally get that for her, I'm proud of you!! Don't worry, we're good as long as everyone is healthy, both physically and mentally. I have so many goals for 2025 that I would like to share in this letter in the hopes that we were able to achieve it all, if not, at least some of them. I'll start off the with biggest one. Did we get into nursing school?? Right now, I am not confident enough to give a clear answer to this, but I hope my future self can proudly say that he is in fact going to start nursing school in the Spring of 2026. If you didn't get in, that's okay. We can always try again for fall 2026. But, I hope you tried your best. I'd only be disappointed in you if you didn't. This journey is not easy and I know that. It's okay to face obstacles and delays. I like to think that they only help you to become a better and stronger version of yourself. God has a plan for everything (an even better one than yours) and I know he will make it happen at the right time. Next, were you able to get a job at Walmart? Right now, I'm hearing that they aren't hiring anyone till after new years, so I really hope you did in fact get hired. How about your weight? Did you gain at least 40-47 pounds? Right now, we're sitting at around a 100-101 pounds, so even if you only gained 5-10 pounds, I'm proud of you. How did that new year resolution of wanting to start gym go? Were you able to stay consistent? Do you finally have that clear, glass like skin?? I'm sorry if I stressed you out with too many goals and aspirations. But, do know that even if you aren't completely satisfied with where you are right now in terms of these goals, you still have time to keep going. I'm proud of whatever progress you made during this year. I know that you may have had other things come your way that could have hindered these goals, so I hope you went easy on yourself. Okay, I also had another wish for 2025 that I am sure you probably remember. For the past couple of months, I've been obsessing about wanting to visit India. It's been over 6 (almost 7) years since I last visited my family there. I really hope that you are sitting somewhere in Kerala while reading this letter. I can't seem to explain how badly I'm longing to get back that opportunity to enjoy time with my cousins like I used to, back when I was little. It's just not the same here. I miss all the fun I had during Onam & Christmas vacations back home. If you did not end up going, I hope you still enjoyed your Christmas. I'll be honest, I haven't had a chance to truly celebrate Christmas ever since I moved to the US. It always felt like an average day for me. I really hope this Christmas was different for you. I want 2025 to be one of your peak years, so I'll be working hard to make it happen. I won't lie, I do have thoughts that it won't turn out the way I want it to, but only time will tell how it goes from here. I hope you continue to keep at your goals and make your future self proud!