A letter from Dec 26, 2024

Dear me, 2024 was an eventful one for sure, in the least cliche way possible. I experienced love from a new perspective, as well as a lot of pain resulting from it. As much as I wish I could say I was in a perfect relationship, I wasn't, and a lot of the pain happened before the break up. That being said, I'm learning now what it means to really be loved. He loved me so much, and I loved him, but we didn't know how to love each other in ways that felt good. It started good, thats for sure. But, I knew it wasn't there to stay. I knew he wasn't my husband, but I think I had to experience that pain for myself to really know. We broke up in October. I broke up with him, and I wasn't planning on it. I literally got in the car to go to Starbucks and he called me, we talked for an hour, and then I broke up with him. I felt really bad.. I wish I had a better plan. Or even a better explanation. He has a new girl now though... he moved on fast. I freaked out big time about it, mostly because she looks like me lol. But then I went on a date, and it was the best time!! Not sure if it'll work out, but he seems like a nice guy. Okay anyways! By the time you get this letter, I'm not really sure where you'll be. I don't know what my true plan is after graduation. I would like to take a year off and explore the world, but I stink at planning. I may have my own classroom in a year, how crazy is that?! I'm entering my student teaching in about a week and working with kindergarten which is sossososososoo scary. I hope I do okay. I am really looking forward to seeing what this next letter looks like! Ria's getting married in two months, then I graduate, then my literal life is starting. I love you, it will be okay, i hope you are so happy!!!!!