A letter from December 26th, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Dear future arianny I’m somewhat halfway through my 11th-grade year. Things have changed a lot since 10th grade. I have new friends and lost many of my old ones. I’m no longer friends with Brenda or the other girls but I still hold love for her. We stopped being friends for a stupid reason but anyway, ctc has been great for the most part I went on a trip last year and it was great I’m hoping to do it again. Mrs left and it's not the same without her but I'm very proud and happy about her. This year has been ok I’ve made new friends with Samya and Liddy and a few more but nothing too serious as I still feel hurt by Brenda but it’s wtv at this point. Dad is still being mean and not understanding me which is fine because I didn’t expect him to but he has done things that hurt me a lot I have to act tough because if not then I look weak. I’ve done my part to try and be nice and all but with her here it’s not easy and she said that I’m starting a war between us when all I’ve been is nice like ***** I’ll just hit ur head on the wall and we can call that war because all I’ve been is nice and understanding but it doesn’t matter because he will always pick her over me. Anyway, I’ve had a better relationship with my brother but they are still annoying yk. I have many goals in life and I’m working for them miss Rusnock is very helpful but she left and it breaks my heart tbh but I’m still happy for her because she really wanted this. I’m very proud and everything but I just hope she doesn’t just leave and never come back yk. I’ve been better as a whole but I’ve been eating less and being distant with people because I don’t know who to trust anymore. I wanna be a dental hygienist rn and take pictures for fun or part-time, but idk yet things could change. But sometimes I think I don’t know what I wanna do with my life and that’s ok, right? Well anyway, I hope you have an amazing year and we’re almost done with high school will I miss it??
I met a boy and he's nice but he's hurt and needs lots of love, he treats me nice and I think this will work out between us but I'm scared of getting hurt but if I don't then I'll never be loved, and I know its better to try new things then never grow so I'm giving it a chance. Mom doesn't think I should I tried being honest but she thinks I'm only talking to him to have *** which isn't true but there is nothing I can do, I can't go out with him...like I don't want to lie anymore he seems like a good kid just give up a chance