A letter from Dec 25, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Let's pretend this is December 25th 2024, it's only 1 hour into 26th of December and it feels the same. Christmas has hardly been different for the last 5 years, the same routine my mum complains about almost everything not because she wants to buy because it's never enough. The food, money, drinks and the feel of the house. The house, there's no doubt that I grew up here but it's becoming really unfamiliar, the smell the environment the arrangements. It doesn't feel like home anymore. There's no kitchen, the rooms are all dirty and we have little to nothing. No television, generator, a proper fridge. Christmas feels boring and tiring. I am glad to be here with them because I really don't know how long I have until I leave the country so I am learning to cherish the moments but I want a home back. My house used to be the cleanest place I know but it's slowly losing all potential, I don't want this in 2025. I want a home, a beautiful one, decorated just like the old years, I want laughter and filled hearts. I really want to enjoy this Christmas. I know praying for a new house seems far fetched but I pray that I am able to fix the one we have currently. The looks the interiors and brings back joy in 2025. I don't want to feel lack of sorrow that I am feeling currently. I hope 2025 gave me everything I wanted. Merry Christmas to the Alohans