A letter from Dec 24, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi, self. It's probably christmas there as you received this message. Today's december 24, 2024, 3 hours more before christmas. How are you? Well, if you wondering, or perhaps if you still remember yourself today, all I can say is... you're still growing; looking for answer in everything; learning from every mistake you've done; still questioning yourself if everything will be fine or will go as you want; scared what will happen in your future. Idk if you already made up your mind there. Does everything work up fine over there? I'm curious, 'cause what if I can't make it? I'm scared what will happen to my life after school. I know I shouldn't question you about my life after school because you're just shs 11 there. But I'm really wondering if can get a job asap after school... don't you think so? Sigh, let's just wish. Does being a shs student hard? I'm wondering if my self over there is tired. But don't worry, I'm sure in the future everything you've work hard for will be worth it! Just keep fighting! It's tough, I know. You're still trying to fix yourself everyday. But I wish you've overcome a lot over there, I wish that you're more strong as you was today. I wish that every little things doesn't trigger you anymore. I wish that you don't compare yourself anymore to anybody. Ok let's scratch it of everything. GIRLLLL IM TIRED OF PRETENDING THAT LOVE LIFE CAN BE WAIT LIKE "I'm not really into having relationship" " I don't need man" "I don't want a boyfriend" "that can be wait" LIKE IM LYING, I ADMITTED IT, IM LYING, OK???? I REALLY WANT TO EXPERIENCE HAVING A LOVE LIFE TT~TT I want to experience thos high school love life but how the ******* hell???? Where and how am I supposed to find that kind of ****** love? Like?????? Ahhhhhhhhhhh. How I wish you're experiencing it over there. I WISH. Argh, I wish someone would love me like they would pursue me and like you know, a gentle man that is matured, know how to treat girls, like a standard men ARGHHH YOU KNOW HAT I MEANT. sighhhhhhhhh. When my love life will come???? huhu Whatever. Merry Christmas nalang sayo dyan.