A letter from Dec 24, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Today is 24 December 8:34am and right now i'm waiting for the oat to cooling down for our dementia stroke grandmother. Have you been working out? We cant help our mom to moving from her bed to wheelchair because she gained 87kg this year (that was 45kg more heavier than our weight). We keep feeding her lot portion but she cant exercise alas dilemma. Can you hold and move her now? We start exercised this year because our mom is getting old, we dont want to burden her with grandma. And when we said burden we dont want to become burden of the family, and so we need to find a job. Its been 2 years since we first seek psychiatry for the first time and a lot of medication after that. But now we have been free of pills since February. Have you tried search for a job? Communicating with people sure is scary and we haven't recovered fully yet but i hope we can helping monthly expenses. We have been tried to make portfolio for the past months, we need to catch up with everything after being hikikomori for 3 years. Try to catch up with friends too, also maybe in next year we could find a new community? We don't need many people in our life but connecting with people will motivated us to be better person, i hope. Have you resolved your guts with your senior relationship? Its all about guess and distrust but he always by your side since school. Even so he was so manipulative, he was the reason why you seek counselling at the first time. Wether its just our paranoid or manic phase that time, you need to be comfortable with yourself first. I hope next year you can gain a new perspective about relationships and find a relationship that you can trust fully. And the most important one is are you still living well? Please be well. I hope future me is still doing her best and adapted with her environment. Everything in this world is just a moment, one blink you are in the future. Keep sane.