A letter from Dec 18, 2024

Dear FutureMe, really need to do more updates. Just sent an email 10 years into the future and obviously what worries me the most now will be minuscule in a decade. But in a year? more plausible. So yeah we are unemployed, we just moved into a new dorm and we should really finish that degree, work on the thesis and apply for the masters. no time, no time. 1. I really really want that assistant position or a job that pays well and is manageable with my studies. but until now I've only gotten rejections and I think my parents are only so patient because they're not seeing me. but soon its Christmas and ill drive back home which means lots of nagging and fighting, like they did when I.just.moved.back.from.china. well all will be well 2. I do like the dorm dynamic, its like a shared apartment with weird vibes, and the rent is cheap 3. if it wasn't for that scary Beatles class that im not actively preparing for I may could've just finished part of my module but now I need to cram everything next term fm. well all will be well. 4. struggling with mind, Body and relationships. mind: I've been way too many times in a functional freeze this year. need to change this. maybe the busy schedule and the new environment will change that. body: why do I pay for the gym if I don't go? not even working out at home (well my dorm room is too small and no yoga mat) Gotta go!! relationships: friends want to move, some friends get ignored, some friends don't reply wtf. and guys…idk im not doing that **** with my insecurities anymore, I am beautiful, I am insanely hot, the guys are just boring and im stuck in my shell. Because where the hell am I supposed to meet some?? and yeah this sounds insanely arrogant but the semester abroad was such an eye opener, I attracted guys and girls alike. its not my fault well my laptop is about to die and I gotta sleep, got class tomorrow bye nana