A letter from Dec 11, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hey lover, Its Alexandra here, im officially 21 yknow. I feel somehow older yet younger than i should be at the same time it should be noted that im high as i write this. My birthday technically ended about an hour and 37 minutes ago, but i also just got home from hanging out at Milne with my wonderful friends. To be frank they seem so amazing and my current life satisfies me in ways where i am nervous about the future in which it may bs taken from me. The idea of being able to so comfortably care and be in the company of others is something i havent know until 21 years old it seems. I havent decided if i should send this to us in a year or farther out? Perhaps a year will be fine. Im so curious what we will do love. I worry for you and try to care about us as much as we care about the 3 cousins. Which probably sounds insane from an outside reader but stay with me. I uh i got a new ID photo and license today . Then i got cava (with arugula) for the first time. After that i got a massage and thenn went to feng cha a boba shop. Then it started raining i tried to write short stories abt mom. And thennn i took a walk in the rain and drove to an art museum and took another walk in the rain. I really loved the meuseum it was so stunning it was so exciting to walk around. I fell in love with a few paintings there was this one room covered in female paintings and 3 women in there were breathtaking. One was two women in roman dress in a colosseum stadium but they were obviously lovers with the way the brunettes hip was grabbed. The second was a woman in her 40s covered in this gorgeous white dress with pearls being draped generously across it in strings on the hips, bodice, and the portions of the skirt. The final one was a girl who was frighteningly real. I locked eyes with her as soon as i stepped into the room and was magnetized closer by the softness of her expression and skin. Her fingers were like looking at some sort of too real still life it was amazing. I hope this works I hope ur okay ….im sorey abt mom I love you Its gonna be okay Please be okay U have the potential to be so much Goodnight Gardenia