A letter from Dec 07, 2024

Dear FutureMe, hi ali is leaving for america this monday im so happy for him he gets to see new york city and la i told him to say hi to brennan lee muligan for me tell him that i cant play dnd here bc i cant find the people for it we dont have larp camp here ;( curse u brennan for getting me hooked on this game that i cant play its like back when i wanted to play val and couldnt so i would just watch youtube videos of other ppl playing anyway im jealous but i guess he earned this deserves it more than anyone tbh im at a state of loss rn it might be depression idk i dont want to do anything not even hunger can get me to wakeup i just want to sleep all the time i wake up and im already thinking about sleeping this letter is for next year thats not even that far into the future ur gonna read these letters and be so sad im already sad i was supposed to be gone by now realistically i hate to admit we wont make it out even by next year i dont have much more to say other than how it shouldnt matter to me that a random man on the internet called me love but im so desperate for it that i cant think of anything else i hate that he didnt even mean it ofc he didnt -saba