A letter from Dec 04, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Life lately hasn't been the best..... I've been thinking about what person I actually am, like what type of human I consider myself as. And I don't know. Every thought is negative. I keep thinking this is who I am. A failure, a disappointment, just a burden and a ******* *****. I keep trying but it just isn't enough and I know I can do better than this, I have to do better than this, but I just keep failing. I know this is a part of learning but I kinda feel like this is who I am, this is what I deserve. For a fact I know you didn't give up, you kept trying and you are here now and I am so ******* proud of you. Don't worry about the future honey, live your present. Yes, result matters but they are just some stupid numbers and letters, they don't define you. Let people say whatever the **** they want to, cause only you know the real struggle you have gone through and I promise one day its all gonna be worth it. All your hard work will pay off. I want you to remember that you are strong, capable and that I love you. Don't give up. Yes take a step back if needed, take a break, rest, but never give up, stand up on your feet and get back out there. Show them who you really are. And always remember that I am so proud of you and I love you so much. Go get them honey, go get them.