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Dear FutureMe,
I am still adjusting to my new environment. It's not that easy for an introvert person. Everything is new to me, I'm a person with a kind heart and helpful. I won't wonder anymore if someone misinterpreted me because of my intimidating look coz I'm used to it anyway. There was a saying "no matter how good you are if you make one mistake everything will change the way they treat you before." I am feeling that right now, no matter how I fit myself in to belong or get along with them and because of that one mistake you won't fit in. Instead I was treated differently. Earlier today December 2, 2024 around 9 in the morning we are doing some day work. I helped paint the vessel and I just got started but the Bosun told me to wipe all the dirt around the windlass. It's not new for me since yesterday the same thing happened, I wiped all the dirt in the bridge after my duty 0400-0800H with all myself. Back to the windlass, at first I was motivating myself and thinking that it's part of my job then realized that maybe it's not fair there's because I'm just the only one who's doing this whole thing and they're 3 of them painting meanwhile the other 3 are just talking and doing nothing just waiting and I'm not sure about the whole thing but that's what I've seen. And no one even cared to lend some help. It's okay for me, I just wished that no matter what happens I will accept everything and keep praying. Until 1 of the AB after painting his part he approached and helped me. I'm at ease that time. Everything went smooth and back to duty 1600-2000H after my duty it was so disappointing I didn't have viand the same last night, and earlier in the morning after my duty there's none also in the afternoon if I didn't complain this afternoon my lunch box won't be filled. And tonight it's not so right about what's happening. I'm so thankful that I didn't finish my monggos during lunch and I ate my leftovers for dinner and fried egg. I just moved on about what they've cooked for dinner since I didn't even get a chance to taste it HAHAHA I wonder how it tastes. It's hurting me emotionally HAHAHA but I've got to be strong. This is my life and career I chose for myself I must stand for it. I was just hoping that it won't ever happen Tomorrow again.
I am still adjusting to my new environment. It's not that easy for an introvert person. Everything is new to me, I'm a person with a kind heart and helpful. I won't wonder anymore if someone misinterpreted me because of my intimidating look coz I'm used to it anyway. There was a saying "no matter how good you are if you make one mistake everything will change the way they treat you before." I am feeling that right now, no matter how I fit myself in to belong or get along with them and because of that one mistake you won't fit in. Instead I was treated differently. Earlier today December 2, 2024 around 9 in the morning we are doing some day work. I helped paint the vessel and I just got started but the Bosun told me to wipe all the dirt around the windlass. It's not new for me since yesterday the same thing happened, I wiped all the dirt in the bridge after my duty 0400-0800H with all myself. Back to the windlass, at first I was motivating myself and thinking that it's part of my job then realized that maybe it's not fair there's because I'm just the only one who's doing this whole thing and they're 3 of them painting meanwhile the other 3 are just talking and doing nothing just waiting and I'm not sure about the whole thing but that's what I've seen. And no one even cared to lend some help. It's okay for me, I just wished that no matter what happens I will accept everything and keep praying. Until 1 of the AB after painting his part he approached and helped me. I'm at ease that time. Everything went smooth and back to duty 1600-2000H after my duty it was so disappointing I didn't have viand the same last night, and earlier in the morning after my duty there's none also in the afternoon if I didn't complain this afternoon my lunch box won't be filled. And tonight it's not so right about what's happening. I'm so thankful that I didn't finish my monggos during lunch and I ate my leftovers for dinner and fried egg. I just moved on about what they've cooked for dinner since I didn't even get a chance to taste it HAHAHA I wonder how it tastes. It's hurting me emotionally HAHAHA but I've got to be strong. This is my life and career I chose for myself I must stand for it. I was just hoping that it won't ever happen Tomorrow again.
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