Happy 18!

Happy 18th! If we even made it. We’re practically an adult now, doesn’t sound so intriguing, to be honest. But same question again: got a girlfriend yet? Really hope it’s a yes this time. We both know we don’t want to miss out on teenage love. Your 16 year old self would be so disappointed if we didn’t experience it. But let’s be real, that probably isn’t the biggest concern for you right now. It’s admission season. Hopefully, we’re heading to our desired university (and getting out of this country). Things are going to be tough, but let’s try our best. Rosie’s 5 now. She’ll always be our little baby. One thing though, have we gotten better with people? I mean, I do have a caring family, close friends (if they even consider me theirs), and, of course, our little Rosie. Things aren’t all that bad. But recently, I’ve been feeling so out of touch with everyone. I put a lot of effort into friendships and relationships, but it feels like the effort isn’t reciprocated. Am I nobody’s favorite person? I don’t have that one person to share all the little things in life with. As the oversharer I am, yeah, I have that group chat, but do they even care about my yapping? Still, I appreciate them. I’m still stuck in the mindset that having a girlfriend would solve all my mental issues—a person I could talk to every day, hold hands with, hug, kiss. Romanticizing my melancholic solitude is my current coping mechanism. I hope things are better on your end. I just started learning guitar. Don’t you dare give up on it so soon. I hate to bring up academic stuff, but you must have finished all the IELTS and SAT stuff by now. GPAs should be halfly done. I wonder where we’ll be? Europe? Australia? Or still here for a while longer? You’d know by now. As for me, I’m still so unmotivated, procrastinating on everything. End-of-semester exams are in two weeks, and I’m probably cooked. I’ve been losing joy in gaming lately. Just reached plat in val (eventually deranked after a losing streak). Competitive gaming doesn’t feel as fun as it used to, unless I’m playing with friends, it’s hard to enjoy anymore. Have you cut your hair or grown it out? It’s shoulder-length right now, and it gets a little bushy sometimes. I still like it, though. Kind of hope you grew it longer. Music? Our taste changes all the time. I’m in my Radiohead phase right now and have started listening to full albums. It’s nice to put one on while walking Rosie at night. Anyway, that’s all I can think of for now. Wishing the best for both of us. 2rd Dec 2024