A letter from Nov 26, 2024

Dear FutureMe, i am thankful for my brother and my friends. i like my brother a lot he is like a second version of me. i look up to my brother because i see him as a father figure rather than my dad. my brother is the best brother i could ask for. i am also thankful for my sister. my sister is the best. she buys me a lot of things to make me happy and is protective over me. i also like my mom n dad im thankful for them. im thankful for my mom being able to cook and provide necessities for me. im thankful for my dad for being a hard worker to keep food on our table. my dad buys me a lot of stuff and adores me. i dont like him how i like my mom because they fight a lot and sometimes it turns physical. i still like my dad, i just like my brother more because i was taught how to become a man more from my brother. my brother is also someone i look up to because i can talk to my brother about anything. i can talk to him about jokes only me and him would understand, i can open up to him without regretting it because we both care for each other so much. i love my brother a lot and i hope the best for him. im also thankful for my weights. i like lifting weights because they help me take my mind off stuff. when im feeling down i lift weights, i compare myself to the guy my ex left me to and i use that as motivation. i always thought i was weak. i want to grow as a person because i'm skinny. i need to gain muscle. i want to be a stronger indivisual. im also thankful for myself. i'm thankful for myself because i overcame a lot of challenges throughout my life. i havent been the same since fourth grade. a day before my birthday my dad left and then texted my brother to tell me happy birthday. that hurt me, but i knew things weren't going good for my parents. i thought they would've gotten a divorce, but they're still together as or 11/26. i'm still waiting for the day we can move out of our 2 bedroom duplex. i'm thankful for my home. yes, its not a good house but its somewhere i have a roof on my head, can stay warm in the winter, can stay cool in the summer, and can stay comfortable in my house. i like my house because its been where my family has lived for 20+ years. i have a lot of memories of my house. i'm very thankful nothing seriously bad or damaging has happened to my house, and i hope that the house will still be in tact when i become older with a family. another thing im thankful for is music and my airpods. i like listening to music because i can sing my heart out while still relating to the lyrics. a song i'm really enjoying right now is "and this is just the intro" by tory lanez. this is because this song is about love and how his ex-girlfriend found a new boyfriend, and the hate tory lanez is giving to her and him. this song has been in my rotation a lot and i know most, if not every lyric to it. another thing i'm thankful for is my friends. i have made a lot of friends coming into putnam, some new and some old from elementary. my friends are paul shaun hector jeziah cincere justice and dariel. i enjoy having friends, but sometimes i wonder if they should really be my friend. sometimes i feel like they hate on me for no reason and they make fun of me becuase of my race. racism is everywhere but they do it every single day. i'm proud to be muslim though, and if i had the option to change it i wouldn't. another thing i'm thankful for is allah. i'm thankful for him because i'm trusting him with my life. he can stop my heart at any time , but lets me have the chance to live. i hope his plan for me is good in the future, and i hope that i can get a job i enjoy and make a lot of money. i put all of my trust into allah and i want him to do the best for my future. 11/26/24