A letter from November 25th, 2024

Dear FutureMe, How are things going? Are we still alive? If yes, please answer my questions:Did our mental health get better?Do we still have the same best friends?Do we have a pet?Did our style change?Anddd do we still want to go to the same high school? Also you will receive this on christmas as my christmas gift!! So do you like this gift and any other gifts you have?Here's a little story so i dont just ask questions.This year has been really chaotic, i have been trough some really bad mood waves, like i constantly think everyone hates me.Which sometimes the way people act makes me think that even more.Like im also the "therapist" friend, so my friends really only vent to me, but when i try to vent to them, it turns into them venting again, which sucks because i feel like i have no support this way. Not to mention the real living hell, school.Every morning before i go to school, i have to calm my self because no one else will.On Tuesday November 19 2024, which is not so long ago, was like the worst day at school ever. I have an extreme phobia of presenting/speaking in public or just big crowds, my dad knows it and that day, morning before school i literally had a panic attack, begging my dad to stay home but he just said to suck it up, so i did. Then in I.T. my teacher was screaming at me like crazy and i had to do the 5,4,3,2,1 method constantly to not cry.Well then the lesson came, where i had to present, and i had the biggest panick attack of my life, i couldnt breathe much, my heart was beating like crazy, my leg couldnt stop moving and i was crying like crazy. Im still embarrassed. Oh and if we're not alive,I'm sorry.