A letter from Nov 25, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I'm writing this letter in residential treatment, about to be discharged, hopefully. I'm working right now on changing my core belief so that I am not actively hating myself. I recently realized I may not actually hate me and it might be just a coping mechanism. I'm hoping I'm right and you've dropped that core belief. Right now love for others is a strong core belief of mine and I hope you still hold that. At this point I hope that I am one year sober, from it all. I hope I have taken time for me and made steps to ensure I keep prioritizing that. I hope I've traveled and felt at home. I hope I've loved and lost, so I can grow. I hope I have gained experiences and insight. I hope I love what I'm doing and not settling for less. Are you happy? I hope so. I love you. For the first time in a long time, I'm not lying when I say that. I love you, me.