A letter from Nov 24, 2024

Dear FutureMe, You know that feeling when everything seems like it's crumbling down? That's how I have been feeling for the past week. It feels like I am a house made of straw... I don't know why I suddenly had the confidence to start hoping gain. I can only do so much... I feel the most pathetic lately. Most of the times I write to you, I can bareky fight the urge to **** myself but, that must mean that I do not really wish to end this life seeing as to how I am being clingy. I swear I really did try. But once more, i comp;etely lost. I feel likenot even God cares at this point. I really hope you are still alive.