A letter from Nov 23, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Today I went to go see a play, again for the 3rd time to be exact. I keep telling myself it’s just because I love theater, and not because the boy I like is one of the characters but the more I think about thats most definitely the reason. I keep trying to convince myself that I don’t like him because I thought I only liked girls, and he himself is unavailable. I don’t even know why I like him I THOUGHT I had other crushes before but for some reason this crush is major, its more love and admiration than any of the other people Ive had a crush on COMBINED and I don’t like how Im feeling about all this. I’ve heard writing your feelings down could help clear your mind, so thats what im doing. I’ve considered the fact I might be bi or omni or something else but thats really hard to believe since this is the ONLY guy i’ve ever liked and I can’t just like 1 guy than call myself a different label, pretty sure theres rules or something , or maybe I just like the fact that he’s nice to me but I don’t think thats the case either. I really hope this doesn’t last long because it’s interfering with the way I socialize with him which I HAVE to do. And question for future me, do you still like him? Sincerely you know who.