A letter from Nov 22, 2024

Dear FutureMe, 22/11/2024 Hello, me, in one year. How are things? Currently, I'm in year 13, about to do my A-level mock exams. These past two years at sixth form have been hard, gruelling and pretty depressing. It's probably a time that future me doesn't want to remember and honestly, rightly so. So much has happened: discovering myself, acknowledging my self-worth, re-evaluating the friends I hang out with, and coming to terms with such deep-rooted personal insecurities. The hardship that I've endured in 2024 alone has been treacherous. Enduring my potential eating disorder, the decline of my health; having to give up on treatments, doctors, nurses, my own family and friends for help and so much more has been a tough and long struggle, and it's still ongoing. Such a massive overload of issues obviously caused me to spiral quite often; leaving me essentially vulnerable and depressed, with little support networks. Despite this though, there has been light for me. And, I'm sure; I want to hope that you know the light I'm referring to. If that light is still there with me, I thank God and them immensely. I want to believe that in a year, me and them are still great friends; that we're still inseparable and closer than ever. I hope that they're okay and doing well, even if things were to change. At this stage of my life, I badly want to imagine a time when I experience some freedom. Sixth form is very restrictive, and so is home life, a combination which doesn't exactly allow me to experience things that 17-year-olds would usually do. Even if such a time might not be possible right now, I pray that a year from now, two years, three, ten years from now, God will remove my hardship, and replace it with ease. With this, I'd like to ask some questions or rather point out a bucket list, in the hope that I have something to look forward to! -Seeking help, - I think that it's important for me to understand myself through the lens of a professional. I've accepted the fact that both my mental and physical health need improvement, and I know how unpredictable I am, therefore, for the benefit of myself and those around me, I get diagnosed. I heal and accept and move on. -Making some new friends, Exploring my options with people - Sixth form really disillusioned and frankly sheltered me from society. I'm so used to being around people that I don't share any qualities with. This is pretty lonely and boring, - I don't really enjoy school that much. I think meeting new people would be good for me, and I would love to expand my horizons with relationships. -Did I get to read loads of books during this time? Right now, I've read about 7-9 books this year. I'd have to say the most memorable and probably my favourite would be 1984 by George Orwell. I love dystopian novels, though it does make me question societal morals quite often (Does Future Me still think about this???) How are they doing? Are we still close as we are now? I hope so. It would be nice to read this a year from now, with more memories of each other, and a closer relationship. Did we end up going to the same university together? I should hope so, I've prayed so much. How is my niece doing? I hope she's well. Right now, she's in the starting stage of crawling. She's growing so quickly, but I want her to stay the way she is now sometimes. Seeing her become so lively and bubbly is such a blessing. Have I made alterations to my somewhat undecided life plan? How's university going?? Did I change my options or decide to do something else? I want to fast-forward time and see. Did I manage to do well on my A-Levels? I feel like my days are so consumed with revision, homework and content, that I have no time for anything else. I don't have many friends right now though, so my social life isn't too special. Regardless, I'd love to spend more time outside of the home to explore. How am I? Did I stop overthinking things? I hope that I've come to terms with things. Also, I wish that other people had come to terms with things too. One last thing, potentially too early still to ask but I want to know my development.. Are they the person? Am I their person? With sincerity, I hope that things are okay. Someday, I'll truly be a happier person; I won't carry my baggage around all the time. Someday, ease will come, and life will have its challenges but I pray that I never re-live these days again. So, to end - I hope I receive this email and see it a year from now! I'll be waiting for your response. Let me know how things have changed. Let me know how we've changed. All will be good with hope and faith. Yours sincerely, Me, 2024.