From myself to me

HAPPY BIRTDAY LOVE!❤️🎂 First of all, you’re here. That means you made it through all the storms, the sleepless nights, the tears no one else saw. You’ve faced moments that felt impossible, and yet here you are, standing taller, even if you can’t feel it yet. I'm proud of u I hope you’ve learned that it’s okay to not be perfect, that your value isn’t tied to how others see you, or how much you accomplish. You’ve carried the weight of trying to be “good enough” for so long, but I hope you know now that you’ve always been enough just as you are. Remember to love yourself in the way you love your closest friends. The world can be harsh, but I hope you’ve found moments of joy that remind you it’s worth staying alive. Keep going, even when it feels messy, even when you don’t know where you’re headed or when u feel like giving up. The person you’ve been dreaming of becoming? They’re already inside you, just trust the process. You’re doing better than you think. And 18 now Hah aren't ya! All your responsibilities start today. GO get ur drivers license tho and make urself proud. Just enjoy today wil ya 🥳😚 With love, The 16 year old You Who Wrote This YKKK 🤭 I can't write a letter without a poem so here's a poem about how I am now hope u are better than me 💕 🩷🩷🩷POEM: Barely Alive: I want to be a better Muslim, I swear, But sometimes, life just feels unfair. Every test feels like the edge of a knife, One bad grade might ruin my life. Food feels like my enemy, yet it's my friend, A battle I fight that seems to never end. Some days I eat too much, other days none, I smile to the world, but inside, I break, Trying to survive every choice I make. The weight on my chest feels heavier every day, I try to keep fighting, but I just want to fade away. I’m losing myself, don’t know how to fight, Everything’s dark, and I’m losing the light. I want to be smarter, I want to be whole, But every day feels like I’m losing control. I want to be smart, so badly I do, I like this boy, but I can't let myself feel, If I admit it, it might become real. I dream of helping, of saving lives, Afraid of failing, afraid of it all. School feels like a prison, I can’t break free, The walls are closing in, and it's suffocating me. The tests keep coming, never giving me rest, Chasing perfect scores, but I’m never the best. I miss the days when I could play all day, When nothing mattered and time slipped away. Back when my worries were far away, And playing in the sun was how I’d spend my day. Some days I wish I could just rest, But the pain won’t stop, it’s an endless test. My mind’s a storm, too loud to bear, No peace, no silence anywhere. I hate myself, but I love me, Torn between who I am and who I should be. I won’t say it out loud, I won’t make it real, Because admitting it, I can’t deal. I try to ignore it, pretend it’s not true, But every day, I’m falling for you. I want to let go, but I can't admit, That I like you more than I should, just a bit. I know it’s wrong, this sweet despair, To love someone who’s unaware. Yet every smile he casts my way, Turns my night to brighter day. I catch myself watching you with care, Admiring your beauty when you’re unaware. Without judging me, the rain starts to fall, As if it knows my secrets and understands them all. Leaving me feeling isolated, Like a prisoner with only my thoughts for company. The clock keeps ticking, I can’t keep pace, Running in circles, lost in space. Time is a thief, and I'm afraid to grow, What will I become, I don’t really know. Success doesn’t feel like success feels like *****. I’m scared to grow older, to lose my way, Wondering if I'll make it through another day. I struggle inside, but I won’t give in, I’ve got my flaws, but I’m still wearing my skin. So here’s to the girl who hides her pain, Who smiles in public, but cries in the rain. You’re messy, you’re human, you’re doing your best, And one day, you'll see, you’re stronger than the rest.🩷🩷🩷 I hope u found peace with urself or in someone. Just know that whatever is happening Allah will get u through this. He does not burden a soul beyond it can bear. Allah believed u could get trough this, 🙏and u can just don't give up on your dreams if you kept going you will be pretty close to achieving them rn right? So don't disappoint me cuz I have worked so so hard don't let that all go waste. Oh and never let a stupid boy make u go crazy most of them are just the same waste of time. I'm proud of u and I hope u of me too. Whatever path u took its never wrong even if it might take u a little longer than expected. U will get there eventually. I LOFE U SM 🥰 Adiós amor☺️