A letter from November 22nd, 2024

Time Travelling — 12 months

Peaceful right?

It is hard to believe this year is coming to an end. I am currently 16, I write my last exam for grade 11 in 2 days. How crazy is that? It feels like a fever dream.
I grew up watching my cousins live through their high school years and apply to universities, find their first boyfriend, make lasting friendships, get heartbroken, break hearts, go out to parties, be cool. For that, I believe I got scammed. The universe sold me a version of adolescence which I have yet to experience. It is jarring to look at my peers and see them living the same way my cousins had, back when they were sixteen. Am I the faulty piece? 
As of now, I strongly believe these are my long-term goals:
  • Achieve a full-house of around 90% distinctions from term 1 to the Finals.
  • Be accepted into APU in Malaysia for a Software Engineering degree.

  • I recognise that these are not goals that can be achieved overnight. I have to put in effort, starting this December.
    I have to admit that I yearn to live, to love, and to be loved. I want so badly to have a romantic partner who values me and respects me. I cannot say that it is a goal of mine. But it certainly is a desire. If you have found one, I am happy for you. If you have not, do not falter, good things come. 
    With much love,D. B.

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