A letter from Nov 22, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I am currently 16, it's the 22nd of November of 2024, I hope I'm not manifesting anything bad for myself but incase you might need to hear this. remember you've always got your own back. i’m grateful for myself, i am the best that little jassy could’ve ever gotten to hold her. if she saw me now she would think i was so pretty and so amazing. i am the best gift i ever could’ve given her. i am kind. i protect her. i wish i could love like her but i am grateful i am her. i am grateful that everything happened the way it happened to turn me into who i am. she would be so proud of me. i am grateful that all her prayers were answered. i am the 4 year old jassy who didn’t have to pick between their mom and dad. i am the big girl 5 year old jassy wanted to be. i am the pretty girl 6 year old jassy wanted to be. i am the big ***** girl 11 year old jassy wanted to be. i am the smart girl 12 year old jassy wanted to be. i am living in australia like she wanted to. i am the happy girl 13 year old jassy wanted to be. i am the confident girl 14 year old jassy wanted to be. i am the loved girl 15 year old jassy wanted to be. i am everything ive always wanted to be, i will always be everything i want to be. i am the same annoying girl who talks too much, too loud. i am the same girl who screams and laughs when she’s happy. i am the same jassy who just wanted to held by someone. i am the same stubborn jassy who always wants everything her way. i am the same jassy who cries to herself late at night. i wish i could tell 13 year old me that she’s not alone, that im watching and holding her. i’m glad 14 year old me saved me to allow me to turn into the beautiful person i’ve become at 16. I'm glad I'm not 15 year old jassy who isn't crying herself to sleep every night asking god why everyone turned against her while being heartbroken. im back to being the jassy who thinks she is beautiful. i am back to being the jassy who doesn’t hate herself. im still the jassy who always wonders why no one wants me in their group, im weirdly happy about it because i can hold every jassy that felt this way and tell her that she was never alone. i grateful i can tell her im the one watching her do everything she was doing. i can look back and tell every jassy who felt left out of everything that i feel the same way too. i wish i could hug every version of jassy and tell her she will be okay. im still the jassy who wonders if she’s pretty, i wish i could back to every version of jassy and tell her she is beautiful no matter what anyone says. i need to tell her she needs to find herself pretty and that’s all that matters cus she is only who wakes up with her face every morning. i hope jassy never changes who she is and annoys the **** out of every one who is not for her. i wish i could tell 13 year old jassy she was liked by 3 guys. i want to tell every heart broken jassy that we figured out why that had to happen. it was for her to blossom into the amazing girl she is today. every time jassy looked in the mirror and didn’t like what she saw, i want to hold her and tell her she is the most beautiful girl to ever walk this earth. i want to tell every jassy that felt boring that she is interesting and whole. i want to hold very jassy who cried about hating herself and tell her she turned out be the most precious being. i wish i could tell every jassy who got ditched by another ‘friend’ that she is the same person and found people who loved exactly for her. i want to tell every jassy who got called annoying that the reason others find her annoying is the reason other people love her. i am so so proud every little version of jassy who fought to turn into who i am today. i am so proud of every jassy is always trying to be better. i am so happy all those little girls were me. it brings me to tears to think they are all still cheering on for me inside me. i know every version of jassy would look up to this jassy and feel pride. i know if there ever was a day on this earth where i was the only one cheering for myself or loving me i wouldn’t be alone as all the little versions of jassy are with me. i know each every version of me would come running to me to comfort me right now. i know that with out fail all the little jassy’s would be here for big jassy. i wish i never disappoint future jassy. i hope i am being there for her right now. i am grateful i am the jassy that always always finds her way back to herself. i’m grateful i love every single version of myself this deeply. i will love this version myself this deeply to when i look back. a butterfly can’t see the beauty of its own wings. someone else’s beauty is not the lack of your own. i promise one day it will be my turn to live the life i’ve always wanted. NOW LOCK IN. WE NEED TO GET INTO A GOOD UNI. i love you and will forever proud of anything you do. i don't know you but you know me I PROMISE I AM HERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT. UR **** AS ****, SMART AS ****, STRONG AS ****, LOVEABLE AS ****. IM SAYING THAT CUS I LOVE YOU. SIMPLY FOR EXISTING. MWAH OKAY I LOVE YOU AGAIN.