A letter from Nov 21, 2024

Dear My Future Self, Hi my future self, I hope by my 18th birthday, life would be much better than what it is currently that I am going through, I hope to have more freedom, more friends, more fun and mostly, more happiness. Right now, it is basically the opposite, I have many problems that I was born with and I can't do much about and honestly, its unfair. Just to list a few: - Being short (under 6 foot ig lmao) - Being skinny - Looking really underage as if being short and skinny wasn't brutal enough already These factors alone make me pretty friendless ngl 💀 and theres nothing I really did to deserve this. It just happened to be tied to me specifically and noone else, like wtf - Having a stupidly strict dad who cares so much about the most random shi and just generally isn't a normal person in general, I honestly think he's a bit mental, he's strict about games, screen time, my handwriting, what I eat, and plenty more - My mom is also pretty strict and yells and scolds a lot, sometimes I don't even know what she is angry about - There is also a lot of arguing in my home since all of us are naturally bad tempered people, and its the worst combination to have There is so much more I can add to this that makes my life just worse and worse. Noone else has to go through this and they are enjoying their already perfect lives(most people idk) and I'm just here suffering. Obviously, I'm just trying to tackle these issues, I'm eating more to try grow taller and bulk up, I workout more now. But with my horrible genetics, I'm not really seeing results. I'll just continue to be this small *** kid with barely any friends and has to deal with unreasonable and restricting parents and a **** ton of arguing and yelling and other mental **** that happens. I would cry most days about this and I don't want this to carry on and take over my life. I have to do something about it So future me, when you are 18 and officially turned into an adult, I hope all of this stress and suffering has died down. I hope you are a bigger, stronger, happier and more hopeful of yourself than right now. I will try my best these two years to get to that stage. I don't specifically have a goal size, weight or height (at least 175cm) to get to but just enough to be considered 'normal' in my community and friend group. To wrap it all up, I hope you will become a better and more happier version of yourself. See you there