A letter from Nov 19, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Omg, I can't even. I've just received a letter from a little over six months ago and I could tell how much distress I had. And I told you we'd win eventually. Intact I told you we'd be okay. Look at us now. I am so glad I have myself, like you literally have no idea, waah. Anyhow, I'm so glad I read that letter because now I feel like atleast we've achieved something. Yk, moving on from my worst fear. Moving on from the live of my life. I know to move on I had to convince myself that he wasn't a good man. But I also know that if that's what it took then I had to do it for my sanity. I am a bad person, I live with that everyday, you don't think I know that I did him dirty? Technically, I started doing that way before we even left each other. I am convinced tho that he did it multiple times too, cuz I had yeast infections waaay before all that Malcolm ****. I wonder why I actually did it will that weirdo. Anyhoo all is gone and I don't have to pretend to anyone no more. I've come to rant. Well, I have this kind of crush in quotes, that is too complicated. He is Ruth's friend, and classmate. Has a girlfriend and I kinda Like him. Well to be fair, idk if I actually like like him. But there is sth when he talks to me and the way he talks to me. Idk, I think he likes me. But I'm not sure and I don't want to risk it. Yesterday I was talking to my diary and imagine kumbe all along I was thinking about kissing him etc ndio I confirm whether we feel the same way😭how weird of me. Who am I? N yk, actually it's not such a bad idea😭is it? I need to find out ASAP cuz it's driving me crazy and now I'm starting to crave for his attention. Girl, he has a girl😂are you crazy?