A letter from Nov 13, 2024

Dear Junior Dylan, Hey girl you just turned 15 and well I guess this is just a little life update. Sooo unfortunately your still in love with Hudson. Like actually. I don't know but like I'm genuinely beginning to understand that I genuinely am in love with him. But maybe its just the idea of him. Not sure yet. Oh and just in case you forgot some dude approached you in the metro for the first time. Not how I thought that experience would go. How's life finally being the age little us always wanted to be? Have our parents gotten less strict? Oh and your starting to hang out with Amira a lot more. Like you 2 are getting a lot closer which is good. On friday you 2 went on your 3rd outside of school hangout to see dance like black people are watching. The huzz were there and we looked chopped but its ok ig.. Also dude have the fits gotten better because rn your wearing the same things over and over again because we have no clothes. Also lets really get into it. ***** do you have a boyfriend yet or what... like its getting embarrassing. Imma have to start going for the ugly dudes who want me like joel.... Like guys this is not silly anymore I really want teenage love in a relationship. I've already found it in friendships and therefore I'm very appreciative but like **** a girl kinda want a man. and i dont know whats wrong with me like why am i preventing myself from liking other people because my brain wants me to stay availible because what if there is a chance that hudson does want me but im talking to someone and I wouldnt want to be a bad person and end the talking stage just for him and then be called a bop but like for him I totally would... Like its really bad. Like what if he stops liking me because I got a bf or something but at the same time who tf wants me 😭 likeee. Idk why im just going on rants about this boy but idk I just really like him. Like ive never liked anyone the way I like him. I just hope I actually like him and not some idea of him that ive created in my head. I love his cute smile and his humor reminds me of my own and hes smart but slow at the same time and hes just overall cute. Theres no one ive ever wanted the way I want him. ughhhh I need to get over him. no i need to run over him with a truck so I can move on. Anyways hows life girl. Rn school is really hard but were not im a bad place like we were around this time freshman year will all the laela ****. also your over her in terms of you wouldnt want to date her again but we miss her in terms of moments we had. but now that i understand what our relationship really was I don't want it back which I feel is very mature of me. Ok girl its been nice talking but I have an essay due at 11:59 and im def not done yet soo bye queen 😘😛