A letter from Nov 17, 2024

Dear Jess, I think we already wrote a letter this year. Can't quite be too sure. And I got the reminder in the inbox today so I thought, why the hell not? Well..... well, well, well. Who would've ever thought 10 years ago we would be here. Currently chillin at work at the Redwood Hotel in New Zealand. Next week you are going to be getting on a flight that you spontaneously booked to see Jay in New York. You are either saying to yourself right now "What the **** was I thinking?!" or "That was the best decision ever." Let's not get our hopes up too much on this one. But let's enjoy it. See, the thing is though, last time you did something this crazy, it led you down the path that brought you here. Is that a good thing? Not sure. I remember how scared you were back then, a feeling you are very familiar with in this moment. But life..... we can't control it. It happens. Painful things happen. Your brother gets sick, your partner leaves you, you don't talk to that friend ever again. None of that is the result of the decisions you made for YOU. Often times we have written and speculated about what the coming year might bring- are we still in that relationship? Are we pregnant? Do we have that new job? This year let's just try to be open to the entire realm of possibilities and see what happens when we relinquish control to the universe. Maybe this is all part of your healing journey- one you have been on for some time now and one that I am not sure will ever end. It's an ongoing process, like exercising and eating well, something we have always promised ourselves we would do. Speaking of that, right now you have lost 15 lbs. You go to sleep MOST nights around midnight, and you go to yoga every week when you can. So maybe we kept some of those promises to ourselves after all. It may have been hard to see in the moment but you've made so much progress over the years. Jess, babe, take a deep breathe. And remember how much I ******* love you. No matter what has happened or going to happen, you are going to be okay. You are kind, you have a big heart, you are strong and beautiful inside and out, and you deserve the love that you give. Take care babygirl. Untill next time. Love always, Me