A letter from Nov 15, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I've had an awful month. I fell head over heels for a boy who treated me like a princess when it suited, and when I was worthless when it didn't. It's finally, actually, over. I'm promising to be better to myself. There was a 'before' Charlie, a 'during' Charlie and there will be an 'after' Charlie. When I met Charlie, I'd been on antidepressants for a week. I'm trying to remember that my newfound happiness came from within - not just from him. I feel as though, even amiss this pain and hurt, I finally have the energy and the mindset to be the person I deserve to be. I've joined a gym, I'm going to start learning to drive, I've joined the library and started reading again. I hate myself for sleeping with him, I hate him more for promising he wouldn't leave after I did. I am building a person that he never touched - a better, happier person. He didn't deserve me at my worst (the 'worst' that he created) and he certainly doesn't deserve me at my best. I am building a life for myself, for the first time in my 18 years. I am so proud of myself. Heres to the future. 15/11/24.