A letter from Nov 11, 2024

Hey *******, its you from a **** year ago. we don't really have to worry about being corny or cliché if its just between the two of us huh? how've you been? just to remind you, I'm pretty miserable right now. I do hope you're out of the country or about on your way out by the time this reaches you. I'm working my *** off. Btw I'm listening to that Char x Bulletproof remix rn, it slaps. and for both our sakes, do be better when you're reading this. the absence of Soumili is still a **** ************ right now. I wonder if you've found someone by that point, if your outlook on life and love has changed by that point. the person i am currently wishes for something crazy and extraordinary, most likely someone you will look back on and wonder "wow how did i live without ___". Maybe its your cooler clothes, maybe its your piercing, or your haircut. Or maybe its even the people around you. though it'll hurt like a ************ if its not the latter if you're reading this. I hope Tina is still by your side, and so is Abhra. those two are the only two who have always been there. make sure to tell Tina she's a ***** if she hasn't gotten thinner yet. you know, I am honestly not doing as bad. It's awful but not really because of Soumili leaving, a lot of it has to do with College ****, most of it actually. So i hope you got into somewhere good. it's been a crazy year tho. I've been through so much ****, and changed so much as a person. i wonder what kind of person you are right now. the person i am right now, i dont know, i hope the conversation with Abhra comes true. i hope you remember. and uh i honestly dont even know if i mean this, but i still have the urge to say this, for some reason, my bad if its weird, why am i even apologizing to myself? but hey. I love you. i want to love you, which counts enough for me, and i hope you do too. take care, you already know i suck ******* when it comes to letters.