A letter from Nov 06, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi wissie, Tomorrow is your second wedding, or today ig. You changed alot, youre scaring me! I feel like you lost all your values and what once made you. You married a m6o3, who asked specifically “ are you a niqabi” . Hes also married with multiple kids. And here i stop to wonder as i do it, how could i just give up that value ? I feel so much hate for myself, and i just burst into tears every time i think of this whole thing. Whats worth mentioning is that ik off my meds, and lord when i tell you i felt the true feeling of laughter, yet i felt the true feeling of hating and despising myself. I dont know what tomorrow will be like, and im so terrified. I hope you are doing so much greater when you read this message. I love you,