A letter from Nov 06, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Its been 3 days after my birthday. And this year i have become a mom to an incredible human. So subconciously i dont know why but i was expecting my husband to buy a gift for me, since this year he is doing financially better than past years. But didnt recieve any, not even a hug. Just a dry wish on the phone Its been 9 months and my husband hasnt been physically intimate with me. Sometimes he says my stomach is huge and sometimes he says he has got no intrest anymore. Upon that his siblings arent talking and behaving well with me due to the shein parcel incident. I am just left alone with my baby, and its so difficult for me this time. I know this hard time shall pass, i just wish i had the sabr of my prophet (pbuh) to wait for khair from Allah. I am trying !😢 My worst years of my life are passing after marraige. Indeed marraige is a test for me and a blessing for some.