A letter from Nov 04, 2024

Hey baby girl, Today is Monday, the final week where you are going to present your final website to your mentors. The past 2 days you have been feeling weird, feeling dreadful deep in your core to be precise, i don't know if it's the nerves, the excitement you are getting done with 15 months of it cause you feel it in your jellies that you are gonna ace it and graduate, or is it the second-guessing, doubts, negative thoughts of what's next that have got you feeling down. Well i have no clue, it can be the whole mixture, don't fret. We decided to take control of what we can and leave the rest to God remember, so I'm writing this with the believe, faith and hope that He will guide my final steps and the steps to come. He has done it before, I'm grateful for every obstacle He cleared my way.. You are beautiful, ****, strong, intelligent, caring and we are erasing every what if and doubt right now, this minute.. And yes, you like someone but you don't have the heart to tell him cause you're scared of what next. I know i know, you're scared of what happened the last time.. Remember control what we can and leave the rest. Don't start with the questions on that Ferris wheel circulating in your mind. Accept what is given no matter the size, and use it to make yourself happy no matter the time, make memories that you'll cherish for a life time later.. I haven't seen you all smiley for a while.. Also don't be so engrossed in that machine like you have been cause of your projects. get out, see how nature is changing, go for that walk, that bike-ride you love so much and just remember to live no matter what life is throwing at you my love. I am so proud of this far you are, i didn't even picture it. Right now you might be beating yourself but remember your life before and take it as a souvenir cause you overcame. Now be happy, create memories and don't forget to smile as wide as possible, show them teeth out.. I love you so much and i can't wait to write to you again my love. Live life