A letter from Nov 03, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Today is your 34th birthday! Yayyy, except not. This is one of the sadder ones I think. Or maybe it is not so bad, but we will get to that. Let's start with the sad notes first. I told tibor i will step away and give him space to sort things out with his girlfriend. In response, our boy did a 180 and somehow ended up dumping me instead?! We had ***, tibor, we had ***. Before we had ***, the man was all sweet words, 'oh you are so pretty' blah blah bu****** blah, and totally ******* lovebombed me into ******* him. But now, he is like, 'oh we can only be friends.. because you are a very pretty girl'. So which is it? The icing on the sh*tcake is that I am not pretty, unless you are blind (or an alien with totally different beauty ideals). The boy just wanted to **** me afterall? Or maybe he did mean what he said but now is chickening out because of his girlfriend? Speaking of which, he is being totally ******* suspicious. He is living out in the boodonks with some cantonese girl in puchong, and yet he never, never refers to her as a 'girlfriend' or to his thing as a 'relationship'. He always says 'situation'. Can you imagine being his girlfriend?! You have this man literally living in your house, using your ******* car, and then calling what he has with you a 'situation'?! I mean I felt manipulated by him but i think I'm feeling even more sorry for her at this point to have such a moocher in her house. Anyway! Back to my birthday! I got dumped, went for a beautiful (but depressing) hike and then a nice (but depressing) jog. Then i came home, and ordered wine through grab food only to discover that i have no corkscrew. Hooray. So i spend the next hour alternately chipping away at the cork with a scissors and weeping a bit. Finally I got my wine and it is disgusting! So harsh feels like I am burning a throat in my hole. So yes, girl, happy 34th birthday to you!!!! May next year be less s*itty but honestly the bar is pretty low this year, can't be that hard for it to be marginally better.