Set Your Heart Ablaze

Dear FutureMe, Hey man, I hope you're doing okay, I'm writing to let you know that it's all going to be ok. Even if you're in the best place right now I need you to know that whatever happens, it will all be okay. As I'm writing this I'm quite literally lost and genuinely considering ending it all because today was the 3rd time our father told us that my life mean nothing to him and that he's disappointed at what I've achieved so far. Who knows, maybe you finally made him proud of us. Even though Mama says he doesn't mean it, I know **** well he does... But that's just life I guess, not everyone can be born with a perfect father figure. Even though it's probably healthier to just let this go, I'm the type of person to carry this forever, even though it's literally eating me from the inside. He was my role model you know, I genuinely looked up to the same person who hit us for the first years of our lives, the same person who's repeatedly told us that we could die and he wouldn't care. The only thing he'd care about is the money wasted in raising me and how he could've used it for better things. As of now, even though I really don't want to believe him, but his words are getting to me bit by bit. Because here I am at 16 years old and have no real accomplishments for him to be proud of. Maybe he's right and I am just a waste. But no, the point of this letter is to make sure that whatever is going on right now you're going to be okay. Try to let go of all the negativity I so stupidly carry every day and live a life you're proud of. As Rengoku Kyojuro once said, "Set your heart ablaze", and live your life with purpose so that hopefully someday you can start a family and be SURE to NOT make your children live through the same childhood you did thanks to the ******* I once loved.