A letter from Oct 26, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Don’t give up on yourself. I know how you get discouraged sometimes but remember you can do this. I’m typing this with tears in my eyes because I am so exhausted right now. I miss my family and I am experiencing this stifling feeling that I don’t know how to explain. I was never good with words. I’m turning 20 on November 6 it’s so close who would’ve thought I would be here right now. I never thought I’d make it to 20. I guess that’s it! It’s the feeling of realizing I’m no longer a child. I’m an adult with responsibilities. Unbearable responsibility. I want to run away from them. I want to curl up in fetal position and forget everything. I can’t I’m already in too deep. But enough of that melancholy ****. I’m with that green eyed boy with the brightest smile ever. I hope 1 year from now we’re still together. I hope I still experience that calming silence when I’m with him. I hope we get to build that house we’ve always talked about. I want to be with him forever. He makes me happy. Fight for you so you can achieve that goal to be with him forever. Happy 21 I guess until next year! Ps you better get that **** car you’ve always wanted and your drivers license!