A letter from Oct 26, 2024

Dear FutureMe I dont like myself nor do I like anyone else around me. I think my friends are shallow, they are hypocritical. and everyone is pretty but me. I feel like digging up a hole and sitting in it. I feel so alone even surrounded by everyone. Its like nobody cares about me. And somehow I look uglier by the day. Every person I look at looks better, much better. I feel like an outsider all the time. I remember that day I got dressed up and send her photos and she didnt even have the thing to say you look good and she was mad because I told she looked amazing and beautiful only like 3 times and she wanted more?? she is my bestfriend, I sometimes feel like I dont want to see her ever again. I felt so hurt. yeah I dont feel like ever sending my pictures over to this girl, that hurt me alot. I dont know what to change how to change, because Ive been doing everything to look better and its not working because I look the same. Maybe I should stop looking in the mirror and save myself the pain. I just want to hide my face from everyone, I want to hide myself.