A letter from Oct 26, 2024

Dear FutureMe, hello future me, it's already 6:21pm when i decided to write you a letter.... i just finished the Japanese movie "drawing closer" grabee iyak ko dun, biruin mo kakatapos lang ng "the notebook" pinanood ko agad yun, hilig saktan ung sarili e, pero alam mo ba? ka-edad natin silaaa, si allie, sa the notebook, she is 17yrs old when she fell in love with noah.... and haruna&akito are both 17yrs old din when they met sa rooftop... nakakakilig na nakakalungkot pareho.... and you know what's funny? the lovers in both movies, died, sa the notebook sabay sila, while sa drawing closer nauna si haru, bago si aki... and nakita ko na 2007 nakalagay sa ig ni haru nung binabasa ni akito yung private post nya.... then pumasok na naman sa utak ko yung napanood ko sa TikTok nun.. saying that "there's an old japanese saying that if you add all the numbers in your birthday the number na lalabas is the year you'll die, and when that year came and you didn't die that means you survived"... i checked the comments some say they didn't die at those dates but that's the saddest snd hardest date/year for them.. while some say that's the happiest year for them, but for us... I don't know if it'll be the happiest or not, if we'll die or not.. but whatever happens, i hope you're okay... I don't know if we'll experience the debut we dreamed of for so long, idk which school you're studying, if you're taking architecture or not, if you're in benilde or not, if you have a boyfriend or not, pero one thing's I'm sure is when you're reading this you survived the year 2025.... i hope you are happy and safe... i hope most of your dreams, our dreams came true, I'll be praying for you here, i want you to be happy and safe, if ever things are hard over there, don't worry it'll pass and you'll be okay, not today or overnight but soon, ILOVEYOUU and always remember that I'm proud of everything you do, and in every achievements you got big or small, i want you to be happy chasing our dreams, and when life gets overwhelming just, just take a rest and took a deep breathe, tapos laban uli, pls don't hurt yourself, don't go back to the phase where we're hurting ourselves just to ignore the hurting we feel emotionally, kaya mo yan... how's life? how's college? pls don't lose ourselves again.. but if ever you did, i hope we can find our way to get back on track, pray langg, if ever the Japanese saying is true... any kind of ***** is okay, I'll accept it but please never ever do suicide, that's the hardest and loneliest type and that's the ***** your family, our family can't fully take easily... but i really hope it's not true, i love you and i want you to live a long and happy life, have a successful life, a secured income, and have the family we always dreamed of having... I'll try to write you letters each year, and bday, and i really hope you'll or we'll live a veryy long time to read all of them, kayaa mo yan future architect, padayonn, if some of our dreams won't come true, don't blame your self ah? ILOVEYOUU ulii, baka nag sasawa kana mabasa yan pero i want you to know that you're deeply loved by your old self, everything will work out in the end... pray lang, trust in God, for we know that his plans are to prosper us and not to harm us, HAPPYYY NEW YEAR'S EVE, PLEASE LOOK AT THE FIREWORKS WITH SO MUCH HAPPINESS AND LOOK FORWARD FOR THE NEW YEAR TO COME, OHHH 2026 PLEASE BE GOOD TO US, I don't know what happened to us in 2025 or what will happen kasi papunta palang ako dun, haissst sana maging close natin si rylie jahshahaha (crush natin as of now, landi noh? sorry) but i promise I'll do whatever i can to make sure that you'll get a great present or kasalukuyan there, INGATT AND GOODLUCKK SELF🥰🥰🥰 writing this with a heavy heart, grabeee jusko alam na nga nating sad ung movie pinanood pa din natin hahaha, be okay there big me! love you 😘 🤟🏻 ~from 17 year old you (ayessa r.k.h) finished writing in: 6:45pm, October 26, 2024