A letter from Oct 19, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Are you excited to graduate? You just turned 18. In 2024 you got your license, you lost an entire freindgroup but your in the process of making new connections every single day. Every single day your talking to new people you never thought you would really have any interactions with what-so-ever. Its alot. Every single day something new always seems to happen and centre around you. You love but hate that at the same time. Its never bad, but its never good either. Today, you took a french exam. You didnt study, what so ever, a writing exam, the unit we suck most at. I honesty, dont know what we got on it. I dont want to know, yesterday, you had a big biology exam. I think we did pretty well actually, like really well. I dont want to get my hopes up too too much. But we did well enough. Next week, parent teacher conferences are happening. I dont know if we should bring our parents or sisters there, I probably wont. I dont want them there. Your graduating this year. I dont know how to feel about that, recently the only thoughts that have been on my head have been about graduation, I thought about my first experiences through highschool. Its silly when I look back. I sometimes wish I could go back in time and watch every single day play through out my life. You always had something interesting going on. You never really had any 'calm' 'lazy' days like most do, at least currently. I think thats because we surround ourselves with people that bring out so many different unique aespects of ourselves that we never really are able to show to other people that were close with, and they all react differently. Yet i know you hate that nobody has a consistant image of you, and that everyone has their own thoughts and perspectives of you. You wish that everyone viewed you as you view you, thats still not possible. Currently, we still get mad easily, were energetic, we make friends easily, we talk all the time and dont seem to stop. I like it that way. I think that this year, in grade 11, has been the year where ive been the most "myself". Maybe Grade 10 Semester 2, as well. But I think she was still developing than. I like where we are now. We dropped almost everyone that we know, made small friend groups, and they geneuinly seem to like us alot. Like alot. They're unique, you never hung out with these types of people before, currently you feel like you cant really catagorize everyone correctly. I dont like that. Currently, education wise, your doing pretty well for yourself, some things better than others and that still makes me feel a bit uneasy. But its only October! Its fine! Currently, I still am very adament about going into law and being a prosecutor, I used be so adamant about being a defense attorney, I wonder how that will change in the future. I remember first it was, "Computer Scientest" from 13-14 than, it was "Defense Attorney" 14-15 Now its Prosecutor. I dont know, what you'll do. I dont know how you'll do it. Just dont mess up, whatever you have. Because as much as you hate everything and everyone around you and see the negatives first, you love everyone too.