A letter from Oct 18, 2024

Dear Loml, Hi klokie! I wrote this letter this day, October 18, 2024, and you will receive it 1 year later. Apparently when you receive this letter, wala na kong feelings sayo (sana) and already taken (?) lol. Joking aside, this is my confession to you indirectly, kasi as of this moment hindi ko kayang umamin sayo in personal. Yup, confessing crossed my mind, but every time I build my courage, there is always something that pulls me out not to. But anyways, sana when you receive this letter, masaya kana sa love life mo at na-pursue mo na si A. I don't know if my instinct was right na may gusto ka sa kanya; that's one of the reasons why hindi ako umamin. It's been 8 months now since I developed my feelings for you, and akala ko happy crush lang not until I realized na mahal na pala kita boss. I know naman na yung mga actions mo is just kindness and out of generosity, but still I misread it as something special, which was very wrong. That's why when I saw na nag first move ka sa girl na gusto mo through IG notes, my heart was shattered. And the only solution I saw at that time was to step away, so I blocked you in all my socials. Ang tanging naisip ko nalang na "wala na, dumiskarte na. Atras na tayo." Doon ko narin na realize na kailangan ko ng umusad. Alam mo ba na I kept praying to God na alisin niya na yung feelings ko sayo? Mahina ata ako kay Lord jk. My notes were filled about you and our little interactions that make my heart full and happy. And that's it, ayoko ng mag-intay na mahulog yung loob mo sakin. I'm thankful sa lahat, sa pagpapalapit mo sakin kay God. Baka yun talaga ang plano ni God sakin sa simula palang. Ang gawin kang instrument para maging malapit uli ako sa kanya. Second is yung sa birthday ko, you made my birthday special and memorable kahit di mo yun tanda (nakakatampo ha). And lastly, thank you for your IG notes replies. Every time I posted a "nakakapagod," you cheered me up, which I realized na di pala yun para sakin (lol, haha). But still thankful for those, because you made my hard days bearable when it started to feel heavy. I really wanted to be friends with y'all at Vineyard Church, but my shyness just can't (haha jk). Please continue to serve God and make Him the center of your life. Continue with your basketball career, and I'm just here rooting and cheering for you and your dreams. If you think you know me, call me (just kidding). I love you, and know that my heart was pure and genuine. Ano na kayang status natin pagkatanggap mo ng letter na to? Friends parin ba? or a total stranger na? This is me and my feelings, signing off. - #14