A letter from Oct 10, 2024

hi love, it's from october 10, 2024 lolove and you actually got this letter on 2026 (exactly, another 2 years after), how are you? how's life? are you happy? is red still your favorite main color? hahahaha i still remember when you told me what was the reason why red is your most favorite color. isn't it because that's your first favorite? do you still love watching movies? do you still love caldereta with cheese? well i know for sure sinigang is still your favorite. enjoy your special day lolove, i will always be here for you mkay? i hope at this time when you got this, we're laughing while reading it together as how cheesy i am writing this for you. i love you, love. smile often, it suits you. i'll just drop all the songs i've dedicated for you, it's actually from my notes since i love to take notes everything i want and what's my thoughts, but it's actually all about you and for you. sparks - coldplay janice - dilaw i’ll be - edwin mccain yellow - coldplay aphrodite - the ridleys you’ll be safe here - rico blanco (but listen to adie or moira’s cover) heather - conan gray paalam, leonora - sugarcane paraluman - adie ang iwasan - moira di na bale - mark carpio dahan - december avenue yakap - figvres bahaghari - dionela pahintulot - shirebound & busking museo - eliza maturan mainly the sunday morning - maroon 5 remember when you're the one who talked to me after 2 years exactly sunday morning, 11th of august (my birthday). and the lyrics of the song "that someday it would lead me back to you", as we broke up 2 years ago and now you're here, we're here again trying to make it work this time. way back 2020, we're just schoolmates and even just once we didn't have an interaction but isn't it funny that our friends are kinda close and got to talk to them but just not you, after 2 years (2022) we tried, from strangers to lovers hahaha (sadly we broke up the same year) and again after 2 years, 2024 (now) we tried again and fight for it this time and still trying to make this work. so I hope when you received this letter 2 years (2026) from now again, we're still together. and oh i'll drop those letters patotie and i wrote for you. (won't let it stuck in my notes) 1 (while listening to bahaghari - dionela and museo - eliza maturan) looking at you, staring at you, my thoughts wandered, how can you just sit there and do nothing but still looking perfect as ever? 2 (while listening to yellow - coldplay) i’ve been listening to yellow by coldplay, and you popped in my mind without warning, like a bolt from the blue, I smile just by thinking about you. 3 (while listening to Aprhodite - the ridleys) you and your words, it makes me fall deeper, i can’t blame you, you’re naturally beautiful, you’re like a volcano, it has a nice and perfect view, it is sensitive and vulnerable, but one wrong move and it triggers, it is scary when it explodes, ashes would be falling, at the end of the day, it’ll be a beautiful disaster. just like you, you’re ethereal, i still love you even as time goes by, even when you’re like a beautiful disaster. 4 (while listening to heather - conan gray) i’ve been looking at the sky, staring at the perfect well rounded moon, and it surrounded by the stars, they shine and fit perfectly with each other. only if you knew how i admire you the way i admire the sky it mesmerizes me as how they shine the way your eyes glow looking at him they were once sparkling at that time that i was the reason but wasted it and it shed a tear they are no longer shine with me i am no longer the reason behind those beautiful eyes, the way your lips creep into smile, just like the song, ‘wish i were heather’ 5 (I remember I wrote this at that time you love someone who isn't me) i haven’t started yet i’m already losing but i am still here lowkey admiring you hoping he’ll see what i see, as your beauty is ethereal, the uniqueness in you, everything that’s including you. 6 (While listening to DILAW - JANICE) Tila paligid ay tahimik, At tanging tugtog lang ang naririnig, Habang sayo’y nakatitig, Ako’y napaisip, Sa sampung minuto, Papayagan mo kaya akong ilaan ito sa iyo? Ngunit ako’y iyo sanang patawarin binibini, Wari ko sanay mahawakan and iyong mga kamay, Bagamat pasmado ang aking mga palad, Ngunit pangakong hihigpitan ko ang pagkapit na para bang nakasalalay dito ang ating kapalaran. Ako sana’y iyong pahintulutan, Na ako sana ay iyong hayaan, Hayaang mahalin ka sa paraang tayo lang ang makakaalam. 7 (while listening to pahintulot - shirebound & busking) Gaya ng kanta, Ako ba ay iyong pahihintulutan? Kahit sampung segundo lamang, Saglit lang at tayo munang dalawa sa kawalan. Ngunit gaya ulit sa kanta, Kung hindi man umayon ang panahon, Hihintayin nalang ba natin ang tadhana? Hahayaan nalang ba nating ito ang gumawa ng paraan? Bagamat kung ito ay ibabase ko sa kanta, Hanggang kailan ang saglit lang? Sapat ba ang sampung minuto? Pano kung hindi umayon ang tadhana? Hahayaan nalang ba ulit na ika’y mawala? Ang daming tanong, Tanong na gusto kong itanong, Mga tanong na ikaw lamang ang makakasagot, Sapagkat alam ko mismo sa sarili ko, Ang mga tanong na kahit ako ay alam din ang sagot sa mga ito. ~ are we still together? (time will tell) do you still love me? (only you can tell) this will be for your next birthday, i do apologize for what and where i lack, but i really hope that when you got this letter, we're still together. i still can't give you everything you deserve right now as i'm still at my worst again, but i hope you'll be there when my life gets better and could finally give you what i want for you... for us. there's still a lot of questions that only when you got this letter could only answer if we're still together, if we could finally do all the things we've been wanting to do lolove. but if not and you're with someone else already, then i hope you'll get what you deserve and he'll do and give you everything... those things that i can't give. i hope he will love you, the way i love you. just know that even when it gets to the point where we part ways, i will always be here for you so if you need someone, you know who and where to reach me. you know i always care.