A letter from Oct 03, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Today is a public Holiday in Germany and you're sitting on the couch thinking about what to write in this letter. What details about today or this week you might not remember one year from now, that are worth writing. The weather shifted quickly the last few weeks, and it already feels very much like fall, just the wonderful golden colors are missing. It has been a rainy summer in a very rainy year; this made you happy - the underground water reserves were very low and you were worried. You didn't enjoy the summer as much as you wanted to, and still didn't learn inline skating yet. But you've been achieving most of your goals at the university, slowly all that effort is paying off! Probably you'll already have your bachelor's degree when you get this. I hope you are grateful for your endurance and feel very proud about yourself, it's been really hard, but you just keep going on - you definitely deserve to be proud! Right now, you can't decide if you'll pursue the master's degree right after or take a gap year from studying, hopefully you have the answer to that by now :) This year has been hard, hasn't it? Feeling lonely, unfulfilled and mildly underappreciated in a relationship, that started so much different than that. I really don't know if by the time you get this, you'll be already in your own (or in another shared) flat, but I really hope you found a solution, that makes you happier - we both know you've been wanting out for a while now. While realizing the person you're with is not the perfect match, you find yourself right now feeling "infatuated" by that person you don't really know much about and probably doesn't even notice you but seems to have a lot in common with you. And you both have those 2 people in common that could help make it happen between you two... I'm so glad you're not taking any action upon this feeling until you've sorted out your situation. Are you still dreaming about them in October 2025? I can't explain why, but it really feels it could be a good match... my goodness you're idealizing this person so much, this will only go away when you get a chance to get to know them better. You have so much endurance and patience, I don't think you'll be over with this crazy dream in one year from now, haha. Just don't do anything you'll regret later, don't hurt yourself or others, you know better than that. Most importantly adjust your expectations and don't fall madly in love with a fantasy, focus on reality, PLEASE!!! You had a good week at work and a colleague's feedback on Monday made your whole week! Right now, everything after Spring 2025 is uncertain but I hope your position will be prolonged or you'll find something else inside the company. You're headed to Black Forest next week, and you are EXCITED haha, even though the weather forecast says it'll be rainy... please check the fotos of the trip as you read this letter <3 I don't have so many plans or travelling destinations for us in the coming year, it's everything so uncertain now... I hope you continue attending with your nutritionist and get back to the body you feel most happy with yourself, in one year should be more than achievable (fingers crossed!). Hopefully you finished the three last subjects and managed your bachelor's thesis by end of July 2025... Keep saving money, don't spend everything! You want to rent your own flat, don't you?? But find a way to go visit gran at home one last time!! And please, apply both for jobs and a master place after you graduate, maybe the destiny (if it even exists) will sort all out for you. Keep strong, I am really rooting for a happier October in 2025! Lov U and see you in one year, XOXO <3