A letter from Sep 25, 2024

Hey Future Chai ♥ DATED: September 26th, 2024 Hoping all the things that I thought of today comes true for you on the day you read this message. The Winter Arc for me starts soon, and the result to my work and struggles is you. I think I'll just tell you everything in my mind right now. I don't feel so good. I feel as if I am unaware about how much I will be hurt or hurt myself if I continue chasing something like this. I am talking about Preniya. It's just concerning how I am not pulling back enough, rather I'm giving in. I clearly am attracted, but this does not feel healthy for me. I don't think it's good for me. For some reason my body tells me it's not a good idea, I get shivers sometimes. But my mind, in the moment, it just goes for it. I don't like this. So I'd say, what I want most is CONTROL OVER THE MIND. I am not able to withhold things that I feel I should be staying away from. I am not able to handle it in the right manner. Perhaps, it's not only for things with women, it's got to do with everything. It's my mind telling me what to do instead of me telling my mind what I should do. I am not able to study with full focus. I am not able to hit the gym consistently. I am not able to take care of my food. I am not able to take things in my control. I lack knowledge, I sometimes lack confidence. Things are definitely not up to the mark right now. I hope that during my Winter Arc, I flip the switch and catch up with my real potential. I want to look good, because that's how people approach you. I want to speak well, because that's how to retain people. I want to be charismatic, because that's how to make people like you. I want to be on the top, because that's the potential of everyone. There are a few things we wanted to achieve when you have read this: 1. Freedom - Get to be able to do anything you want at any time you want apart from work. We wanted to live in a FLAT, because you wanted to be able to do things freely. 2. Discipline - From making your bed every morning, to keeping things ready for the next day by night. We were looking to inculcate a disciplined mindset, upskill and get better. 3. Learn - Cooking, sweeping and keeping the house clean, laundry, doing the dishes, drying clothes, plumbing, cleaning the bathroom, grooming, skincare, healthy diets, overall ADULTING. 4. Focus - Your ultimate purpose in life is to get financially free to provide for your family! It is my dream, and I still hope that it is OUR dream. Working on your venture and working on setting up a business by night is we want to be doing. 5. Unlearn - You want to be unlearning everything that is damaging the above four. Maintain your grind, you have ONE life, make it count. Importantly, if you have someone you love at this time, I really hope you marry them. Hoping that it ends with marriage. If you are having a tough time, you know very well, if you both work on it with each other, anything is possible. So if you are dating someone and you love them, I hope you have a good family, a lovely home and a really good location with no worry about money. If not, you have your last resort, your plan B. Be the cool uncle, the one who has lost hope in love, become real, ignore ignore ignore women, make sure you know none of them deserve you, and what you must have become. Enjoy your life as much as you can, live to the fullest, tell stories to the people, contribute to charity, because you once cared, cared about the people around you. Your heart is too precious, you are too good and innocent for a world like this, know your worth, don't give it away. What do I have now you must ask?? Yeah, the same old CB Shine that Suchianna uses for his travelling to the internship. Right now, I have a Samsung Galaxy M31. I'm sorry, not RIGHT NOW because I gave it to Suchianna because of restrictions by your uncle. I have a Dell Inspiron 5000 series 5570 i7 8th Generation, Intel UHD 620 Graphics, 24GB RAM, 128 GB M.2 SSD with Windows 10, 480 GB Sata NVMe SSD. I still have my lovely Audient iD4 and Beyerdynamics DT770 PRO with the Maono AU-03 microphone. This stupid but super useful Samsung TV that was once Ammamma's TV. Final words of assurances and wisdom for you... I really hope everything on your side is doing lovely! I hope you are happy with where you are! I hope you have way more clarity in life! I hope you have realized the value of time, the importance of politics, etc. I hope you have new friends, cooler friends. I hope you have a lovely office to go to. I hope you have a bike that you like riding. I hope you have someone/something to keep you going. I hope you travel the places you always wanted to go to - Star lit night skys with constellations in a very remote mountain region, the northern lights in the night sky, Switzerland's lovely landscapes, flower lands, and with your eyes, seeing the most beautiful part of your life, the person you love so much, your lovely beautiful awestriking wife. I really hope you drop another letter to your future self after reading this... www.futureme.org - Keep in mind that the site may have changed! I may or may not explain my entire romantic life situation in another week or so, let's see if it comes! Might do tomorrow if it is possible! WITH LOVE, YOU YOURSELF