A letter from Sep 25, 2024

Dear FutureMe, alot has happened this year. I attempted suicide, I learned that not all friendships are bad and I grew. my mental health is still ****, and it honestly doesnt feel like its getting better. I hope that through the enxt year, we learn to combat my dissosiation, and (fingers crossed) get a diagnosis for DPDR. (also do you still take xanax? still not over the fact im taking a drug cvollege students die for). I wish that throughout the next year, no bad things would have happened and no more pain would be caused. Im starting my IGCSEs next week, and im nervouse as hell. i hope everything went well and that i got into TTS. Even if i didnt, hey, at least we escaped :). I hope you found some new friends and a new 'family'. I rlly wish this year would have gone better, but hope always prevails. I hope that when you read this, it wont cause feelings of regret or pain, that the tears that go down your face isnt from sadness or greif, but happiness of all the new, better memories that have come. \ p.s if you dont partake in any creative activity, whether it be wiriting, clay or poetry, im going to invent time travel to ****** you >:) also, have a great 17th bday. alr loving myself from the past. please stay alive to read this, - 16 year old anaya