A letter from Sep 22, 2024

Hi Hari ini tanggal 22 September 2024, im 19 dan beneran ngerasa kaya orang bego. I have no idea what im doing in life, everything just feels wrong and terrible and devastating and i have zero good thing to say about my situation. It doesn't feel right telling my whole family that i feel alienated around them only because things hasn't been working out for me. But it's so exhausting being around people who can't understand me. Nobody in this family is a firstborn and im the only one. I've tried telling them my situation but i keep hearing the same thing from everyone and i don't know how long i can hold back. Capek bgt sumpah kayak mau mati beneran capek banget tai gue capek batin mampus sampe sesek bgt tiap bangun pagi ngerasa kaya orang tolol beneran Gw bahkan gabisa berharap Jessie setahun kemudian bakal seneng dan at ease soalnya gw aja gatau besok bakal gimana idup ini Tapi kalo lu masi idup dan bisa baca surat ini, luar biasa keren congrats bgt😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭