A letter from September 21st, 2024

Sometimes I wish that I could freezeThe pictureAnd save it from the funny tricks Of time...---------Hi!! How are you doing? How have you been?I've realised that yes, I've done many mistakes in friendships. I've also hurt people who have hurt me before and even though it seems fair, it isn't right for me to do so. I'm also realising that maybe, maybe the reason my frienships fall out so much because I might just not be valuing them as much as they deserve. after all, if I don't give gratitude to a relation, it is certain that the universe won't give me positive results with the relation. I'm not a bad person. just a stupid one. Also, I've realised whenever I view people as bad, it's mostly my insecurities speaking. Nothing is real, after all, This whole world is a play of perspectives. Some people see the good, so they attract so. Some people see the bad, So they attract so.So, Things might seem bad for me now but I know the only reason the universe might've seperated me from so many people is because it wants me to learn a lesson. To learn how to handle relations and be grateful. After all, the universe doesn't let 2 souls meet for no reason. These people stayed in my life for the time being they were meant to be in, Now they've taught me a lesson and have completed their purpose in my life..Honestly, it's not even THAT bad. Like- I'm gonna have plenty of drama to tell younger people! Also, I'm happy that I EVER was friends with them. like, I know, it's sad that it ended, that too in this way, but let's face it, it's better to have a blast of a friendship and have it end then never have any friends to start with.
Even though they've leftLeaving the ending painful enough My memories with themis something I will cherish lifelong enough Forgetting the cries, the pain, and the endI'll cherish the smiles, the happiness, and the startbecause I don't want to be sad that it all endedI want to cherish the fact that it ever started 
I don't know what ******** I've written but anyway-I'm certain that just because things seem bad for me now, that doesn't mean they will stay that way forever. of course they can't, after all, how many more months does 10th grade even has now? 4 and a half months? Of course a LOT can change in 4 and a half months, No matter if people believe in me or not. I'm so happy that now you must've passed 10th with a great percentage and now you're in a good college with a new life, new friends, and a new perception of yourself. The thought itself makes me happy and relieved that in a year from now, when you must be having a new life, you're not going to EVER be dealing with this **** again and you won't EVER meet another ________ in your life. You're relieved from 10th grade kavi and you've improved from her, I'm so happy! I'm so happy you're not dealing with this **** again because you're a better person now and have learned from your mistakes.I'm really hoping you might've shifted to a new place by now to find a good college.Things won't stay this same way, I WILL improve <3