A letter from Sep 20, 2024

Dear FutureMe, hi this is now a letter to next year which isnt even that far anymore compared to the original 2 and a half but heres an update anyway saying that i met a guy is overselling it i added a guy in valorant ill be honest i added him bc he sounded american and in the servers i play in thats super rare it was refreshing to hear someone without the accent i hear so often ive picked it up i asked and he comfirmed that he was originally from america and is now in dubai whatever originally means now when i add poeple in val im seriously not looking for anything other than someone to play the game with ofc every single guy has a diffrent idea when they hear that im a girl i just wanted to know more about this agency he mentioned he had in dubai fine ill be honest i liked his voice a little anyway lets say things have gotten out of hand a little a little over a week later he is calling me love amongst some other weird *** **** like mamista like wtf is that my guy lmao and i thought i was getting ahead of myself when i imagined what would happen if i had my own apartment in kish and maybe he payed a visit lets say i havent been able to leash my mind at all there were times my parents would say something to me and i would realize im so far into daydreams you get the point the day after i added him we talked in val we havent even played the game once which is the opposite of what i was adding him for let me tell u he is not one to shy away or take things slowly after we talked in val we didnt talk for three whole days typical me avoiding things that scare me anyway on the forth day and the day we were going on vacay i decided enough that i would take my chances bc i hadnt been able to stop thinking about it by it i mean him but i wasnt about to just text him cyz that would be too simple eye roll i was gonna do a whole thing where i posted on insta for the first time in forever a little cringe im glad i didnt do that i dont really use insta as we know it wouldve been a little tooo obvious i was doing it for him ahem ahem anyway that same day he texts me butterflies and stufff goofy ahh me and that same day i get a spam email from tarot.com telling me "this person could be ur soulmate" now im not saying that means anything but i noticed it and i never notice spam email ;) im so done with myself at this point im so over myself lmao anyway unlucky me the hotel wifi was ******* than **** we texted that day but like it felt like sending massages with a pegion im not gonna try to spell that it probably would have been faster to send smoke signals and i wasnt about to text him like that for the whole vacay so ignored his last massag until i got back home last night the first thing i did as soon as i had wifi was text him like a whole paragragh we talked for the rest of the night not really at some point i told him i had to leave bc idk bc bc we shouldnt over do it right? in the middle of it he was showering lmao took his phone to the shower with him took picutres! not anything too wild ik i was terrified about it too but like he aint shy at all i might have been gigling during the whole conversation he said some WILD stuff i tried to remind him he met me a week ago anyway i dont think ive ever blushed that hard im actually crazy half the time i was giggling i was secretly crying for myself cuz like we both know how this is about to go i dont even think i need to say anything yea now i told u all this bc i missed the addmition window last chance was last night i wonder what i was doing that i forgot about something so important i WONDERR what distracted me mf ahem so thats life im basically screwed no collsage for me we are done for all thanks to my giggling stupid *** thx to my naive **** i cant like i havnt talked to boys before eyerolll to be fair i havnt in like years im rusty af and it shows in how fast i grow red and how much i let him get away with cuz any person knows its WAYYY too soon for "love" and "mamista" i cant get over how he said that im so stupid a sane person would bail thank u everyone for reading i will seek myself out idk what the fk im doing signed saba ur dumbest friend <3