A letter from Sep 18, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Today I found out that he lied about his name. After all these while we were talking.. he didn't even bother. I thought i was talking to 2 different people when they were both the same person. It feels like i don't even know him anymore. He makes it sound so trivial, as if its nothing big. For him its just a name, thats all. He isn't understanding that its much more than that. I don't even know what to do anymore. This is reminding me sm of A. The experience is too similar. Just when i thought I've finally moved on and healed, I came back to square one. I.. tried and took a step forward. I was actually talking and tried. Its wasn't one sided anymore. I am so stupid. I should have stuck to my decision of not letting someone else in my life after A. I brought this upon myself, I should have known. If only I actually stuck to my decision. It hurts sm rn. I never dated yet shattered my heart twice already. Enfin, I hope by the time I'll read this i would have healed... No more.. I'm tired. From now on its only me myself and I! Enough is enough!