A letter from September 17th, 2024

Dear I am..Lolly....I'm talking to you from the past now... If you read my message, it means that you didn't **** yourself.. and you're still fine.... It's my first year in university.. I'm studying in the medical school... My father forced me to do it as you know.. Although my dream is something else entirely... Trying not to **** myself.... Because the situation is very difficult... I'm tired... I have a project and a test tomorrow.. My grades are very bad even though I studied hard... I'm afraid that I won't be good enough.... I feel very depressed..... What about you?.. Are you better off than me?..... What are you doing now?... I'm sitting in the university garden.. Listening to music.... Crying too.... Because everything is tiring... I think about suicide a lot these days... Are you okay now?... I'm really tired.. Also.. I don't talk to my mother these days.... I hate my family because of the problem that you know about... I hope that Stay away from them...by the way...how are you feeling now..are you feeling better?...I hope you are better than me...I am desperate...I have to say goodbye now..I hope you are fine....