I wanted to update you (9/17/24)

Dear FutureMe, I hope you're well. I've got a lot of information for you to reminisce on today. First off, at this point, we are still in the Interiors program at Forsyth Tech but we just spoke to Gisele today about what is going on with Quynh and how that might be affecting what's going on with school. On top of that, we just decided to take a step back from Cameron to kind of recenter ourselves in our lives again but also become comfortable with the whole talking to a guy again/figuring out our emotions and opening up. Cameron has been nothing but good to us and he weaseled his way into our life really fast; like a lot faster than I was expecting. He is super sweet, patient and considerate of my life as well as my struggles with being emotionally vulnerable with someone. I am super grateful of him and what he has helped me achieve in my life. He has been a catalyst in me being comfortable in my own feminine energy and helping me cultivate a healthy ideology of relationships. I am not sure what he will be to us when you read this but you should reminisce on what it was in the very beginning and how it has progressed to the point in your life now. I've been pretty resistant to the will the The Lord has for me because I really don't want to open up my whole heart to someone with the risk of it being curbstomped and disregarded but I've recently had a heart to heart with my bestie for the restie and He told me that I need to trust in what He is giving me and that He has me through the whole thing. He also said I shouldn't block my blessings because I am scared or am in my own head about these things. It will be 100% okay, especially because He's here to help me on my journey. Right now, I am just so overwhelmed with all of my emotions and I am trying to work through them in the best way I know how while trying to build better habits and feeling a lot less like a burden to many people as well as trying to become comfortable with people helping me carry the weight. I am also at a point in my life where I am realizing that I have not been as connected to my family as I used to be so I am devoting more of my time to being present with my brothers and cousins again, especially since family is such a large pillar in my life. I am not fully sure where I am meant to go and what I am meant to do but I fully trust in the Lord to get me there. I've got so much to work through that I am just taking it one day at a time. I feel like my emotions are in such a fragile state that I don't want to trigger anything else so I have been taking the time to do better on my end; such as doing laundry, being on my phone less, distancing myself to process my emotions, cleaning parts of my life that need a little maintenance. At this point, I am also studying for the General Contractors exam and doing what I can to get through all of that in a timely manner. I've also recently become friends with Mona's son, Chris. He's a cool person and we tend to relate on a lot of topics. At this point, we've also had Silverado for 2 weeks and he's meant to open his eyes within the next week. Right now, I am definitely at a point that is emotionally exhausting for me because the amount of times I've cried in the past month is crazy. I also just want to say that you probably turned out fine and that's because the Lord had you in good hands the whole time. You need to trust in the Lord and understand that only HE knows what's best for you; you don't even truly know so just let him take the wheel sometimes and as our study Bible says, "Have you positioned yourself to be blessed?" "Well, in order to position yourself for the blessings of God, you've got to learn how to recognize the voice of God and listen to what He says. And not only are we to listen to what God says-we also need to do what He says." "Have you done what God has told you to do? The ball is in your court. You have a choice. Do you want to be blessed?" Just think about all of that. It is probably gonna help us throughout the next emotionally taxing part of our lives and we will be fine. Just don't worry about it all and it'll happen the way it's meant to happen. Also, if you haven't read your study Bible in a while, I suggest you read it now. Oh you know what else is probably still gonna be surprising to you? We still aren't reading those books anymore. We deleted Kindle on August 6, 2024 and hopefully that streak is still going because those books became such a distraction or coping method for us that we we never without the book and we didn't tend to stay in the present. Don't forget that staying in the present is what's most important and cherish the moments you have with your loved ones. I also want to ask, have we met Cameron in person at this point? If not then we should probably get on with it. I hope you're looking back on this letter with a good feeling because these are the pivotal moments in your life that are meant to shape you for the rest of your life. With all of that being said, I wish you the best of luck with continuing our journey in life and hope that you're still writing letters to yourself. P.S. Tram is also exploring her faith and she has confided in me about some of it. We are also becoming a lot closer again so please let me now how that goes.