A letter from Sep 14, 2024

Well darling, this is the end of your Europe summer, and what a summer it was. Of course, many beautiful things were seen - those can all be Google to remember tbh. But what I want to remember is the things I learned, mostly about myself. 1. um I’m literally brave as ****, who does this. As an introvert with anxiety, this summer with 30 cities was so ambitious I’m amazed with myself 2. It’s okay to take things slowly - the trip really slowed down cause I just burnt out. So lesson there, less countries, less cities, slower. Take things in. 3. Not every place is for me. Just cause other people loved certain places or felt connected there, doesn’t mean I do (I’m looking at you Amster*** and Copenhagen and pretty much all of Germany.) 4. Experiences are worth the money. 5. You actually love people, but crave deep connections. I missed my family and friends more than I ever have. 6. I will never be fully satisfied anywhere. This was incredibly annoying to figure out about myself. So that just means I will have to keep changing up my life when I need to. That’s okay. 7. I still crave romantic connections and love but they seem so out of grasp at this time. Which sucks and hurts. But I am allowing myself to feel it. 8. I wish more women could experience the freedom I have. Even just for a moment. 9. Travel is so ******* cool. I don’t regret this. No matter what. I am more before of this experience. 10. I need to find a way to copy my journal into an online thing in case I lose it so I can pass it down! I hope that wherever you are today, that you are living a life to be proud of. If not, get off your sad little *** and change it.