TRAUMA TO TRAUMA HAHAHA

Minamahal kong A, Kamusta ka? Sa pagkakaalala ko nagka-usap tayo dahil sa isang kaibigan na gustong-gusto tayong e set-up sa isa't-isa hahaha. (Mag bisaya-english na lang ang person uyy kay weird man mag filipino) hahaha. I remembered nag sent ning usa ka person at 3 am I guess hahaha. Like literal after wa nako nag deactivate. Then ga wonder ko nganong kadlawn pud uyy hahaha. Fast forward.....Thank you for responding that unsent message that time. I thought man gud basin imo ko e snob atu haha. I am very reluctant man jud makigchat haha kigwaa but your friend always keep telling me that kini na person is a good guy, green flag daw. So I asked her, how come? Unsaon pagkahibaw? haha ana ra sija na mahibaw-an ra na nimu. Then kanunay sija mag-istorya about this person like always everyday. She was so glad na nag chat2 nami later on hahaha. (Pugos raman c.e haha joke). There was a day na mi ingon ko, "basin pareha na pud ni cja sa ahung mga ka chat, kalit rag ka wa". My friend insists "he's a green flag, dili ing-ana sija". Then I trust her ug nag chat2 nami ani na person (kilig-kilig ang person) haha. Kinsa ba lage di kiligon na mag chat murag uyab man pud kigwaa hahaha. Sa kadaghan nahung fear atu na time since ga focus pud getting a license, I don't know why nakaingon kog "I wanna settle with this person". Why so green flag? Mag send na sijag updates like that and that na wa nahu na experience sa uban. What amazed me the most, he said something na "mata ra ko unya". Pag mata nahu,naa nay chat haha ga update na pud cjag balik. kigwaa baning lakiha uyy miabut man pud sa time na ing-ani hahaha. Pakasalan kita jan ehhh hahaha. I think I'm in love, I don't know lang jud if nag recriprocate among mga feelings para sa usab-usa (UWUUU). Bakit kasi di natin e try? Sa mga pila ka adlaw kilig2 ra gud hahaha ahak na gajud bleee. One day we had a conversation with my friend who was the reason nagka chat mi. She was so curious unsa ahung gibati about atu na person hahaha. Asa nami na stage haha mi ana ra ko na, you know what I'M AFRAID na parehas sija sa uban. He's a good man man gud. (denial pa more, ingna lang jud you like him na) hahaha. The miingon ko atu na time, sa ijang question, ga chat2 pa mo?, wa na kay wa naman pud cja mi reply sa ahung mga chat. Why inconsistent naman sija uyy? haha (so sad 😔) Naglibog ko nija man. Then mi ingon ahung friend, "he's giving a mixed signal". Then gi search jud dajun sa baje uyyy meaning anang mixed signal tas wa ra gihapon ka gets charizzz 😂. Later that night, nag talk napud mi sa ahung friend, she asked, "Unsa man jud imong gibati nija? ug manguyab sija, willing ba pud ka"? Siyempre pa hard to get lang pud ta uyy, ahhmmm depende hahaha di kay makaingon ko jud He's a good man. yeahhh she replied. Then I told her, wa na sija mi reply man. Nahhh di na ko uyyy parehas ra sija sa ubang laki huhuhu. (sad again😔). DI NAKO NIJA HUHUHU. She replied, "AJAW SA SIJA E WA. E KEEP SA SIJA KAY I CAN FEEL NA NA MAGKA-UYAB MO. GIVE HIM TIME KAY BASIN BUSY RA JUD PUD SIJA. NAA KA GA REVIEW UG SIJA PUD". I replied, I cannot hahaha. Mi ingon pud sija, "YOU KNOW I CAN FEEL IT MAGKA UYAB JUD MO. KARUN LANG KO KA KITA NIMU NA HAPPY SUKAD NAGKA CHAT MO. JUST GIVE HIM TIME. MAY BE AFTER REVIEW MOBALIK SIJA". Okay raman but why inconsistent haha doesn't he likes me? ana ra pud ko charizzz hahaha wrong grammaring 😂 So nag wonder na pud ang person haha. RELAPSE LANG GUD UYYY HAHAHA. Few days wa na ga istorya2 haha about this guy, all of a sudden nag talk na pud mi balik about her friends. Obviously, wa nako mi sabay sa ani na guy ija gi mentioned. Then mao tu mi abut mi sa point mi ingon cja nahu, "HE CAN" then I told her na don't give false reassurance haha. Then defensive ang baje haha, THAT'S NOT FALSE REASSURANCE, HE CAN so mabuhat nija unlike ug mi ingon ko HE WILL mao jud na. Then wa na katubag ag person, EDI WOW HAHAHA. But actually I wanted to tell her that night of 09/15 sa ija gi ingon, "CAN HE STAY....with ME?" charizzz baka naman uwuuuu. GOOD NIGHT🌃